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Chiron in the Natal Chart or: “I’ll need some information first, just the basic facts, can you show me where it hurts?” Houses 9-12

Chiron (the wounded healer) in the natal chart shows where our source of deepest wounding is in our lives. This wounding usually occurs during one’s childhood (what are supposed to be the happiest days of our lives have a tendency to fuck us up the worst), and it is a deep wound that never quite heals itself completely or correctly. Ironically enough, we are usually quite skilled at healing and helping OTHER people in the very way that we ourselves are wounded……we just have a hard time helping and healing ourselves. This all goes back to Chiron in mythology. The quick and dirty version of events goes as follows: Chiron is wounded by Hercules on accident with arrows coated in Hydra blood, and the wounds made by these arrows caused wounds that would never totally heal (and were quite painful). Chiron being immortal (a product of rape (his first wounding) and the offspring of Kronos and Philyra) meant that he could never die, but those wounds from the arrows would also never heal. Chiron wasn’t able to be released from his wounds until he took the place of Prometheus. Prometheus was chained to a rock by Zeus for his crime and had his liver eaten by an eagle daily, his liver then healed, and the bird would come back the next day to start the process over. By taking Prometheus’ place, Chiron was then made mortal and was finally able to die and be released from his wounds. 
……yeah, a depressing fucking story. Good news is that it doesn’t take death to release us of from our Chiron wounding in this lifetime. Just like in the mythology of Chiron taking one for the team for Prometheus, the way to handle and heal our own Chiron is to help other people that find themselves in similar sorts of circumstances of where we ourselves our wounded. The only way to work our Chiron out is to work THROUGH it, and the best way to work through it is by helping and healing someone/something else.

**I want to point out that these are just the descriptions of Chiron in each of the Houses. How all of this will play out in reality will depend on the chart as whole (such as different aspects made to Chiron).**

Chiron in the 9th House: When Chiron finds itself paying rent in the 9th house, the native’s wounding tends to have something to do with expanding oneself in life. The wounding here also has to do with being taught things in childhood that are just…..false. There can also be wounding concerning their abstract mind and the ability to use their mind in this way (or believing that they can’t). In childhood, there could’ve been some sort of wounding concerning the native not being “allowed” to expand their mind as far as it will go. This tends to have something to do with the phillosophical and/or religious/spiritual beliefs of the family that the native was raised. Maybe the native wanted to immerse themselves in some philosophy that was counter to what the early family believed to be correct? Maybe the native wanted to explore and expand their knowledge of the different religious beliefs across the world, but their family was very against the learning of these things? I would actually bet heavily that spirituality/religion are heavy players in the wounding here (since I’ve seen Chiron in the 9th manifest this ways more times than I count in the charts of clients and people I know). Depending on other factors, such as aspects to Chiron here, there could be some sort of perversion of beliefs that the native was taught growing up (and that kind of stuff can really fuck a person up). If any of this rings true for the person with Chiron in the 9th, getting in touch with that expansion that you so desperately wanted is a great start to healing. Engage yourself in a spirituality that fits you and resonates, and expand your mind all that you can. Another great way to heal help to heal yourself is to teach and learn from others in some capacity. I picture a group therapy type setting for people who have suffered this particular sort of wounding, with the native and everyone else sharing their experiences and teaching & learning from one another.

Chiron in the 10th House: With Chiron falling in the 10th, there can be a real wounding dealing with the concept of “authority.” There could have been an authority figure in the native’s life growing up (this could be a parent, or someone else) that they felt was only there to knock them down a peg or two and rain on their parade. Someone who constantly made the native feel “less-than” and somehow not worthy of the positive things that can come from this house. This can cause the native to have a shaky (to an outright distrustful) relationship with authority as they age. It can also cause the native to have difficulty harnessing their own authority, somehow feeling that they don’t have any real authority at all. There can also be wounding in the pubic spheres of life and the way that you feel about yourself within these areas (such as career ambitions, social status, and public presence). This wounding tends to stem from the native’s early family and possibly the way the family was viewed by society. Maybe, for some reason, the public persona and social status that the family had wasn’t very positive. Or maybe, the native’s family was at one point seen as the “ideal” in some way, but some kind of “fall from grace” situation occurred, making the family end up appearing very far from the “ideal” image they once possessed. One of the best ways that you can heal all of this wounding (if any of it feels true for you) is to really learn how to handle your own authority in a productive and positive way, thus building yourself up. Another awesome way to heal yourself is to build other people up in these 10th house arenas of life (something you are naturally quite good at).

Chiron in the 11th House: Wounding from Chiron here will usually deal with groups, friends and acquaintances. The native may have issues with groups of people (and probably actively avoids large groups), and this could be due to something like the native having felt ostracized by groups and “cliques” during their childhood. Maybe they just never were quite able to connect to peers their own age, which naturally doesn’t feel very good in childhood and adolescence (the time when people really want and have a need to fit in). Maybe the groups of people that happened to be around the native growing up served as a bullying force, making the native’s life a living hell. There could also be some wounding dealing with the people the native considered friends. The native may have lost or felt abandoned by several friends as they were growing up. This could be an organic “growing apart” that sometimes happens between friends, to the friend(s) of the native chosing to go a different way socially/hanging out with a different group (one that maybe didn’t accept the native), to the native actually being fucked over by their friends. This wounding can also stem from the native’s hopes and wishes. As a child, the native may have had many hopes and wishes for themselves, for other people, and for the world (since the 11th house is a universal house). It’s very possible that time and time again something came along to piss in the native’s cornflakes and ruin those big hopes and dreams that they had. Disappointments in this area can feel absolutely soul crushing for the native. The native here is actually quite good at feeding into the wishes and hopes of others, really making them feel that what they are hoping and wishing for is possible and worth it…..and not only does this help other people, it also helps to heal the native. Also, the native here tends to understand group dynamics very well due to spending a lot of time staying out of them and watching how they work from the sidelines. You could be very healing for others in a sort of moderator position for some group structure (not actually being in the group, but being the person that people in the group come to talk about group issues). By playing this role, you would also be working through your own Chiron wounding.

Chiron in the 12th House: I won’t bullshit around here, Chiron in the 12th house isn’t an easy one. It isn’t easy because the nature of the 12th house is to cloud and confuse the planetary bodies that reside within its bounds. The 12th House tends to throw a fog over the sign and planets in its domain, making them less easily accessible for the person to understand (and this usually makes the unconscious quite uncomfortable here). Since Chiron deals with our deepest wounding, the native with this placement may not even be consciously aware of what makes them feel wounded (but they do feel wounded in some way), or why. This is a deeply psychic placement, and the native may have picked up on wounding from other people in their early environment (such as their parents, or a parent), and sort of soaked that wounding up and made it their own. For instance, if the native had a parent that was extremely anxious, as a small child the native may have picked up on this and taken this anxiety on as their own. In my blog post about the the 12th House, I mention that the 12th house also deals with the period before birth, with planets in conjunction to the ASC from the 12th usually representing their mother’s labor. With Chiron here in the 12th, something could’ve made the native feel uneasy and wounded before they were ever even born (for example, parental attitudes towards the impending birth of the child that the native picked up on in-utero), or the actual birth experience could’ve been wounding to the native in some way (such as being born with the cord around their neck). The other thing that Chiron in the 12th can point towards is the possibility of having secret enemies. This can be other people that are in your life that don’t actually have your best interests at heart (but you don’t realize this consciously), to the native themself being their own “secret” enemy (and this wounding will usually manifest by way of the native not living in reality enough). Like I mentioned above, the unconscious tends to be a scary place for these people to venture, but it is the key to healing this wounding. Usually this is best done by exploring the unconscious minds of other people first, helping others in this way. By doing so, they are able to dare and become brave enough to go off into their own unconscious mind. Once they start this process, they are able to get a hold of their own wounding in this realm, why it exists, and what they can do about it in reality.

Other posts in this series on Chiron in the Houses:
Chiron in Houses 1-4
Chiron in Houses 5-8



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Chiron in the Natal Chart or: “I’ll need some information first, just the basic facts, can you show me where it hurts?” Houses 5-8

Chiron (the wounded healer) in the natal chart shows where our source of deepest wounding is in our lives. This wounding usually occurs during one’s childhood (what are supposed to be the happiest days of our lives have a tendency to fuck us up the worst), and it is a deep wound that never quite heals itself completely or correctly. Ironically enough, we are usually quite skilled at healing and helping OTHER people in the very way that we ourselves are wounded……we just have a hard time helping and healing ourselves. This all goes back to Chiron in mythology. The quick and dirty version of events goes as follows: Chiron is wounded by Hercules on accident with arrows coated in Hydra blood, and the wounds made by these arrows caused wounds that would never totally heal (and were quite painful). Chiron being immortal (a product of rape (his first wounding) and the offspring of Kronos and Philyra) meant that he could never die, but those wounds from the arrows would also never heal. Chiron wasn’t able to be released from his wounds until he took the place of Prometheus. Prometheus was chained to a rock by Zeus for his crime and had his liver eaten by an eagle daily, his liver then healed, and the bird would come back the next day to start the process over. By taking Prometheus’ place, Chiron was then made mortal and was finally able to die and be released from his wounds. 
……yeah, a depressing fucking story. Good news is that it doesn’t take death to release us of from our Chiron wounding in this lifetime. Just like in the mythology of Chiron taking one for the team for Prometheus, the way to handle and heal our own Chiron is to help other people that find themselves in similar sorts of circumstances of where we ourselves our wounded. The only way to work our Chiron out is to work THROUGH it, and the best way to work through it is by helping and healing someone/something else.

**I want to point out that these are just the descriptions of Chiron in each of the Houses. How all of this will play out in reality will depend on the chart as whole (such as different aspects made to Chiron).**

Chiron in the 5th House: Chiron in the 5th House can show some difficulty with how the native expereiences joy and pleasure. It may feel almost impossible for this person to really let their hair down, let their creativity and self-expression come out, and just “play.” Childhood can prove to be a more difficult and serious time for the native, with them possibly not being allowed or afforded the freedom to really “play” like children are usually allowed to do. This could be because of their parents just straight up not allowing the native to be childlike in childhood, instead wanting them to grow up and get serious at a young age. It could’ve also been out of necessity for some reason, such as the native was forced to grow up quickly because of the responsibilities placed on them (such as having to play a surrogate parent to younger brothers and sisters because the parents worked and needed a babysitter). This lack of being able to play can cause the person to end up feeling shy and awkward around their own peers growing up, never really feeling like they are able to get in on the fun other people are having (or possibly, that they aren’t even worthy of having this fun in the first place). It can also make the native apprehensive in regards to their own children, or even just the possibility of having their own children, due to the way they were brought up. There is probably some fear that their own wounding stemming back from childhood will follow them in the parenting of their own children. People with Chiron in the 5th are actually quite superb with children though (their own or other people’s), and children are actually a huge key in the person’s healing. Just working with children (probably children who’ve had a hard go of it in some way), playing with them (and thus learning how to really play and be childlike themselves) is deeply healing for the native and their Chiron wounds here.

Chiron in the 6th House: When Chiron finds itself in the 6th House, this tends to mean that the native has some wounding dealing with their own health, to their own sense of perfection and what that looks like, to daily routine, and to service. If the wounding has to do with the health (physical and mental) of the native, it could be anything from real health issues that the native experienced growing up and the trauma from this really left its mark, to the person being so wrapped up in the idea of being healthy that they almost become chaotic about it. They may be too rigid in terms of keeping their body perfect and healthy that they actually end up making themselves anxious about the whole thing and causing things like psychosomatic illnesses to occur. If the idea of being healthy deals with the native’s wounding, they could’ve grown up in a family that was too strict in terms of health (such as what the native could and couldn’t eat, etc). Growing up there could’ve been issues that the natives had with following the rountines of mundane daily life (either too rigid in structure, or way too lax). There could also be issues dealing with the idea of service; perhaps there was a time in the native’s upbringing where they felt that someone should’ve been of service to them in some way, and it didn’t happen. Since helping people heal themselves is a way to heal one’s own Chiron, the best way the person can start to heal their 6th House Chiron here is to serve other people (this usually comes naturally to Chiron here). This can be a very physically healing placement for Chiron; these people can very easily be born natural healers. By helping and healing people in the areas of health, perfection, routine and service, they are able to heal their own Chiron wounds.

Chiron in the 7th House: Chiron here in the 7th can indicate some type of wounding regarding intimate one-on-one/close relationships. These could be relationships that the native witnessed growing up that were’t very functional (such as that of the parents). Maybe the native’s parents divorced, or they weren’t particularly close to either parent growing up. It could also deal with wounding that they experienced early only (in adolescence or childhood) pertaining to a boyfriend or even a close and intimate friendship. Regardless of how this wounding manifests itself in the native’s life, it tends to leave some serious abandonment issues in its wake. Chiron in the 7th can also have taught the native early on about how cruel people can be by way of things like the native suffering from some form of neglect, and even outright abuse, from those that are supposed to be closest to the native. Because of all of this, the native can have a difficult time forming really functional relationships of their own as adults. I do believe they try here, but something about Chiron here in the 7th causes the native to be attracted to people who are already wounded themselves in some way that just doesn’t tend to work out with Chiron’s wounding here. Also, the native may attract people to them that can sense Chiron’s wounding here, and this person may exploit the native’s wounding in some way. Basically, issues dealing with close intimate one-on-one relationships need to be healed, and one of the best ways for the native to heal their own Chiron here is to help other people. Whether this is just by way of being an ear for friends to talk about their own relationship issues (these people usually give really good relationship advice), to actually being a relationship therapist, or something in between. By helping other people in this area of life, they will be able to learn more about the way they function in relationships, and why…..thus helping to heal their own wounds here.

Chiron in the 8th House: Chiron finding itself here in this house can cause the native to have some kind of wounding regarding the different themes ruling the 8th House. More often than not, the wounding tends to have something to do with sex, money, and/or loss. If loss is the wounding here, the native could’ve lost something or someone very important to them in their early life. This could be losing someone that was very important to the native by way of death (the 8th House traditionally rules death, but it’s the death of other people, not of the native), to losing someone they cared about who moved away beyond their grasp. It could also just be that the native lost something very important to them, something they tried with all their might to hold on too and were not able. The wounding could also deal with the way the native thinks about sexuality, and this could be due to the early family’s attitude and approach to sex in general (it may have been taught as something completely off-limits and dirty), or could be due to the native having suffered some form of sexual abuse in their childhood/adolescence. Other people’s money can be a theme of wounding in the native’s life, and there could be some reason stemming back from childhood that makes the native think less of themselves if they should ever need financial help from anyone. They might have a downright aversion to ever borrowing money from anyone. If this is the case, it could have to do with their own families attitudes about borrowing money, or maybe their own family was involved in some type of borrowing that went horribly wrong (leaving the family in a financial cluster fuck). If any of this rings true for the person with Chiron in the 8th, helping other people in these same areas can help them to heal themselves. If you have an aversion to borrowing money, lending to other people could help you to heal. If sex is the wound, guiding other people with healthy forms of sexual expression is a great course of action (something you are probably very good at). If loss is the wound, helping other people to “let go” of the things that they carry in this arena will help you to heal yourself. Also, since this house is like the bridge between the conscious and unconscious mind, the wounding tends to exist on this bridge…..making it somewhat harder to heal than in other houses. But once Chiron heals itself here, the transformation is magnificent.

Link to other part of this series:
Chiron in Houses 1-4

Chiron in the Natal Chart or: “I’ll need some information first, just the basic facts, can you show me where it hurts?” Houses 1-4

Chiron (the wounded healer) in the natal chart shows where our source of deepest wounding is in our lives. This wounding usually occurs during one’s childhood (what are supposed to be the happiest days of our lives have a tendency to fuck us up the worst), and it is a deep wound that never quite heals itself completely or correctly. Ironically enough, we are usually quite skilled at healing and helping OTHER people in the very way that we ourselves are wounded……we just have a hard time helping and healing ourselves. This all goes back to Chiron in mythology. The quick and dirty version of events goes as follows: Chiron is wounded by Hercules on accident with arrows coated in Hydra blood, and the wounds made by these arrows caused wounds that would never totally heal (and were quite painful). Chiron being immortal (a product of rape (his first wounding) and the offspring of Kronos and Philyra) meant that he could never die, but those wounds from the arrows would also never heal. Chiron wasn’t able to be released from his wounds until he took the place of Prometheus. Prometheus was chained to a rock by Zeus for his crime and had his liver eaten by an eagle daily, his liver then healed, and the bird would come back the next day to start the process over. By taking Prometheus’ place, Chiron was then made mortal and was finally able to die and be released from his wounds.
……yeah, a depressing fucking story. Good news is that it doesn’t take death to release us of from our Chiron wounding in this lifetime. Just like in the mythology of Chiron taking one for the team for Prometheus, the way to handle and heal our own Chiron is to help other people that find themselves in similar sorts of circumstances of where we ourselves our wounded. The only way to work our Chiron out is work THROUGH it, and the best way to work through it is by helping and healing someone/something else.

Chiron in the First House: Chiron here in the 1st house causes the native’s wounding to have something to do with their concept of the self. This person may not feel completely comfortable in their own body, with their own characteristics and traits. Self-esteem, independence,aggression, and drive can all be lacking in some capacity (and usually also damaged or suppressed in some way). There can also be wounding regarding the natives physical appearnace, such as being unhappy with the way they look due to some real or imagined difference physically. There can also be a history of actual wounding that happened to the native’s physical body by way of accident, another person, or even the native themselves. Chiron in the 1st makes whatever is sounding to the person very apparent to other people and to the native themselves (nothing “hides” easily in the 1st house, unless there is something different going on with this house, like an intercepted house). The wounding that is very much wrapped up in their sense of self somehow can leave them an open target for bullies and other assholes. These people are usually very good at building up other people’s self-esteem though, and possibly even standing up for people who find themselves in a similar wounding-boat as the native. By operating this way, the native is able to help themselves with healing their own concepts of the self.

Chiron in the Second House: Chiron here in the natal chart will cause some kind of wounding dealing with the native’s personal possessions (or lack of), with their values and value system (or lack of), and with their security (or lack of). Especially security. In childhood (because this wounding probably stems from here), the native may have felt that their lives weren’t secure in some way. The aspects that Chiron makes in one’s chart will give you a better idea of the way this insecurity manifested. (Maybe their home life was unreliable? Maybe they were’t secure in their relationships with their parents in some way?) This insecurity could very easily stem from a lack of money in the family in childhood and lack personal possessions that could be afforded for the native. This lack of personal possessions could’ve been necessities that the native actually needed but the family couldn’t afford (such as proper fitting coat in winter), or it could’ve just been things that the native really wanted but couldn’t have due to them being too expensive (such as wanting a new coat, but having to wear a hand-me-down because the family couldn’t afford a new option). Because of the stuff mentioned before, this could cause some screwiness with the native’s value system, placing too high of a premium on money and “things.” A good way to work through Chiron here in the 2nd is to give things and money to other people in some way (people that find themselves in situations similar to those you were in during childhood). By helping others with even less than yourself, you will help to heal your own wounds.

Chiron in the Third House: Chiron in the 3rd House has to do with a deep wounding typically revolving around communication, the way the native learns/the mind, and possibly even the native’s siblings and early school experience. There could’ve been some kind of difference in the way that the native processed the information that they learned in school, which could’ve been a source of problems and pain for the person (especially if parents and teachers were always on the native’s ass about not learning and thinking like “everyone else.”) I’m not even talking about a “learning disability” here (that would be better seen by the aspects made by Chiron in the 3rd to Mercury)……I just mean someone who thinks, processes, and learns things differently than other people. The native may have also been a shy child who didn’t easily speak up or speak their opinions regularly. Maybe the person was derided and bullied by siblings and teachers when they tried to communicate, or maybe there was an actual physical reason that communication didn’t happen as easily for the native. A person with Chiron here would probably make a good teacher themselves(elementary-high school is 3rd House territory). In a position like this, they would be able to care for their students and nurture their minds, learning, and communication in a way that theirs were not.

Chiron in the Fourth House: With Chiron falling in a person’s 4th house, the deep wounding here tends to revolve around their family & home (the one they were born into), their roots & ancestry, and the most private parts of themselves. There can be a lot of trauma and wounding concerning the way the native was raised and with the family that they were raised by. This trauma and wounding could’ve even started before you were aware enough to realize what was going on around you, but still consciously absorbing all the strife disharmony around you and putting it in a deep pocket of your consciousness. There could’ve been a lot of turmoil in the early home environment, from watching pain and discord occur between your parents/caregivers, to your family life not feeling secure in some way, to actually being separated from or abandoned by your parents/caregivers (or one of them) for some reason. Different aspects made to Chiron here will give you a better idea of what kind of turmoil existed, and why. These wounds connected to early family & home life can spill over into the home & family that the native tries to create for themself when the time comes for that. If the time ever comes for that; someone with Chiron in this house may completely try to go a different way than the typical family due to their own upbringing being so difficult. These people have a lot of empathy though, and this empathy would be best served towards something like helping children that have grown up in difficult circumstances similar to their own. By helping those that are going through what they have lived through, they will be able help to heal themselves.


Moon/Mercury Contacts of the “Harder” Variety

A question that I get asked often has to do with mental illnesses/mental differences, and if I’m able to see things like that in the natal chart. The answer to this particular question is yes and no. The natal chart is like a blueprint of possibilities for the person (and the soul) in this lifetime. Just because something “difficult” shows up in one’s natal chart regarding mental illness (or anything, really) doesn’t necessarily mean that the person will ever manifest that particular difficult energy into reality. Though, if the propensity *is* there for mental illness to occur, whether or not it actually occurs depends on a number of factors (such as biology, environment, and nurturing), as well as heavier transits hitting the aspect in question, thus activating it. Since I am specifically talking about mental illnesses & mental differences, certain aspects made between The Moon and Mercury (specifically the square, opposition and conjunction) seem to cause people some issues in the areas of mental health. The specific types of mental health issues that these hard aspects between Mercury and Uranus tend to produce are anxiety (either full blown or just some general nervousness), and moodiness (all the way to the extreme end of the spectrum with intense mood swings). This is a trend that I have noticed time and time again, and I suppose the part of me that finds mental health and psychology fascinating wanted to discuss it 

**Just for a bit of reference……Mercury is essentially the mind of the natal chart, where we think and learn in a concrete way, and where we communicate. It is traditionally quick and logical. The Moon represents our feelings and our emotions.**
***Also, as a disclaimer, I am in no way, shape, or form saying that people automatically have mental issues and differences by default when they have these harder aspects in their natal charts. I’m only saying that the possibility could exist of something like generalized anxiety disorder occurring in their life if one of these aspects is in the natal chart of the person. Just want to make that part really, really clear.***

Moon/Mercury Conjunction: Out of all the harder aspects in this post, this is usually the easiest for the native to carry. With the Moon and Mercury in conjunction, this causes a natural merging of the mind and the emotions. The typically rational mind may have a more emotional bent to it here, and this can cause some confusion for the person. They may become overly attached to things (especially things having to do with the house where this conjunction falls). There is also usually an above average emotional intelligence that these people possess which helps them to communicate with other people (and to communicate internally with themselves). Mercury tends to be more anxious and nervous by default, and the Moon here feels this, making the person possiby more emotionally and mentally anxious. You may also be more emotionally sensitive as well, for your emotions here are very changable; the Moon is changable anyway, and so is Mercury. This can add to this anxiety you may feel, as well as any anxiety that you feel from being an emotionally sensitive person. Anxiety can also creep into the native’s mind and life when the merging of the two planets causes conflict. There are times to use your emotions and times to use your rational mind (and then times to merge the two), and the key here is figuring out how to pull one or the other out and use them independently. The tighter the conjunction here, the harder this will be to do.

Moon/Mercury Opposition: With the Moon and Mercury in opposition, this can cause there to be natural tug of war between your emotions and your rational mind. Issues can creep up dealing with how you process and think about your own emotions. There can be an over emotional quality to this aspect, and also an over rationalization (though not usually in tandem, until the native gets a handle on these energies). There will be times that you will be pulled more towards Mercury, and times that you will be pulled more towards the Moon, and it will be be an situational appropriate match. This can also end up happening in the opposite way that it should, such as you should really be operating through Mercury and your rational mind in a certain situation, but the Moon takes over instead, so you operate out of emotion instead. There can also be some general moodiness (to intense mood swings) and changability in thought because both planets want to have their own way here and aren’t operating in harmony. There could also be some issues with how to communicate with people, and when to do this, and what to communicate. This disharmony naturally can cause quite a lot of anxiety in the person and moodiness (even more than with the conjunction). They key to this aspect and tempering the anxiety that comes along with it is finding the balance between The Moon and Mercury, and knowing when to use one or the other (or when to use both at once).

Moon/Mercury Square: Out of all the harder aspects in this post, this one is by far the most difficult to deal with. The square is constant tension, so with this aspect there is probably a constant tension between the person’s rational mind and their emotions. This can cause the native to be incredibly anxious concerning their own emotions and emotional state and how they process these. Decision making can be incredibly difficult for the person, especially if either the head or the heart needs to be used exclusively for the decision to occur. The person knows that this tension between the two exists (even if it isn’t on a conscious level), and naturally has some difficulty in this area. Communication may not always be as effective, either. This can be communication that the person has internally with themselves, or it can be communication that the person has with other people. They may have difficultly really expressing how they feel and why to other people, and have difficulty understanding their feeling themselves. This tends to rear its head most often in intimate one-on-one relationships/familial relationships, where people are more likely to need to share and communicate their emotions and feelings freely. The mood swings here can be on a much grander scale, as can the anxiety that they may feel. If any of this is prevalent in the life of the person, it is very important that they consciously are aware of when to operate out of one planet or the other. By operating in spite of the tension, they are able to ease a lot of the anxiety and moodiness that may naturally accompany it.

Links to other posts in this series for your reading pleasure 🙂
Squares to the Sun
Mercury/Uranus Hard Aspects
Mercury/Saturn Hard Aspects

Squares to the Sun and Mental Differences

Questions that I get asked often have to do with mental illnesses/mental differences/learning differences, and if I’m able to see things like that in the natal chart. The answer to this particular question is yes and no. The natal chart is like a blueprint of possibilities for the person (and the soul) in this lifetime. Just because something “difficult” shows up in one’s natal chart regarding mental illness, learning differences, or anything really, doesn’t necessarily mean that the person will ever manifest that particular difficult or different energy into reality. Though, if the propensity *is* there for mental illness or learning differences to occur, whether or not it actually occurs depends on a number of factors (such as biology, environment, and nurturing), as well as heavier transits hitting the aspect in question, thus activating it. Since I am specifically talking about mental illnesses/mental differences, square aspects made between The Sun and Uranus and The Sun and Neptune can cause specific types of issues having to do with anxiety and addictions/paranoia. (Pluto Square the Sun is another big one, but I will cover that one in another post). This is a trend that I have noticed time and time again, and I suppose the part of me that finds mental health and psychology fascinating wanted to discuss it 
***As a disclaimer, I am in no way, shape, or form saying that people automatically have mental issues by default when they have these harder aspects in their natal charts. I’m only saying that the possibility could exist of something like axiety occurring in their life if one of these aspects is in the natal chart of the person. Just want to make that part really, really clear.***

Sun Square Uranus: With the Sun squaring Uranus, you have the life force (one’s sun) in constant tension with the independent rebel, Uranus. These people tend to want to live life on their own terms, to the beat of their own drummer, and in the fullest, most electric way possible. These people, never wanting to be ordinary, will buck tradition every chance they get; sometimes this is because they really want to revolt against whatever tradition is in question, and sometimes this is because they just want to go against the grain. Because of this, these natives may have a tendency of rubbing people the wrong way (especially the more traditional and conservative types). The tension in this aspect’s case isn’t the aspect itself necessarily, but what do with the tension caused by the aspect. Because of all the natural tension here of wanting to do things their own way (and they very much get off on being “different” and “shocking”), if for some reason these people feel that they can’t be their true selves, things like anxiety can pop up in spades. It’s the type of erratic and anxious energy that will absolutely radiate from their very being…..and once that sort of energy starts up in the person, it can have a kind of snowball effect. There may also be a feeling of being so “different’ that the person feels “against the world” in some way. The best way to keep any possible anxiety from creeping in (or keeping that snowballing effect from happening if anxiety has already creeped into the native’s life), is to refocus yourself. Accept the natural tension with this aspect as part of your makeup. Get out of situations that don’t feel authentic to you (if you can), and live as authentically as you can. And focus that tension not in a “me against the world” way, but towards something truly meaningful to you (like some sort of cause that means something to you).

Sun Square Neptune: With this aspect, you have the life force (Sun) in constant tension with dreamy, creative, and confusing/foggy Neptune. This particular aspect can cause some real problems with the self-esteem of the person, and the possibility of always feeling like a victim (or actually possibly being one). While those in and of themselves aren’t mental illnesses/differences, what can manifest because of them are. Things like addiction as a way of escaping the natural tension that the native feels because of this particular aspect (especially if there are other “hard” aspects to either of these planets). Who wants to constantly feel like they are being picked on, or treated badly? I get it, escape is a comforting idea here. Substances in general can be a slippery slope here; addiction tends to come on fast and easy with these people, and they also have a higher possibility than many to end up poisoned in some way from some sort of substance (since Neptune rules over things like poisons and the sun is the actual life force). Another thing Neptune does here in the Square with the Sun is cloud things (and lie). Neptune could cause one to believe some creative things that aren’t true about themselves and their reality (and the natural stress this aspect gives off could cause them to believe them). Telling the native things about the self, such as the native is worthless and the native will always be a victim, and these sorts of thoughts could turn into paranoid thinking at the furthest end of the spectrum. The best way to combat mental differences that may stem from this particular aspect is to really embrace your creativity and throw yourself into it. There is a hell of a lot of creative energy here, and if one can put all that tension into something productive in this way, they can help to release a lot of that stress.

Mercury/Saturn Aspects of the “harder” variety

Questions that I get asked often have to do with mental illnesses/mental differences/learning differences, and if I’m able to see things like that in the natal chart. The answer to this particular question is yes and no. The natal chart is like a blueprint of possibilities for the person (and the soul) in this lifetime. Just because something “difficult” shows up in one’s natal chart regarding mental illness, learning differences, or anything really, doesn’t necessarily mean that the person will ever manifest that particular difficult or different energy into reality. Though, if the propensity *is* there for mental illness or learning differences to occur, whether or not it actually occurs depends on a number of factors (such as biology, environment, and nurturing), as well as heavier transits hitting the aspect in question, thus activating it. Since I am specifically talking about mental illnesses/mental differences/learning differences, certain aspects made between Mercury and Saturn (specifically the square, opposition and conjunction) seem to cause people some issues in the areas of mental health and information processing/learning. The specific types of issues that these hard aspects between Mercury and Saturn tend to produce are being overly critical of oneself, overly restricting the things that one says, possible learning differences dealing with information processing (though these people are usually very smart regardless), and depression/depressive ways of thinking. This is a trend that I have noticed time and time again, and I suppose the part of me that finds mental health and psychology fascinating wanted to discuss it 

**Just for a bit of reference……Mercury is essentially the mind of the natal chart, where we think and learn in a concrete way, and where we communicate. It is traditionally quick and logical. Saturn tends to represent hard work, perseverance, seriousness, and yes, restriction.
***Also, as a disclaimer, I am in no way, shape, or form saying that people automatically have mental issues and learning differences by default when they have these harder aspects in their natal charts. I’m only saying that the possibility could exist of something like depression occurring in their life if one of these aspects is in the natal chart of the person. Just want to make that part really, really clear.***
***Also as a disclaimer, I am in no way saying that learning differences are mental illnesses, and I never would. I only lump them together here because these harder Mercury/Saturn aspects can cause either/or; this aspect can indicate the possibility of one or both of these manifesting in the life of the native. To know for sure which (or both) are actually a possibility in someone’s life, you would need to take the whole chart into consideration. ***

Mercury/Saturn Conjunction: This conjunction blends the energies of Saturn and Mercury together, and depending on how tight the conjunction is, it may be quite hard to discern them from one another (the tighter the conjunction, the harder this will be). Saturn here can cause Mercury (communication and thought) to be more serious, more focused, and possibly more restricted. This restrictive influence could cause one to really censor what they have to say (and sometimes this could be to the native’s benefit, depending on other aspects in the chart). If it isn’t a good thing though, this can make the person extremely cautious about what they say, how they say it, and who they say things to/speak with in general. There can be issues with communicating anything at all, but especially things dealing with the native themselves, and their own emotions (and this will be magnified even more if the Moon is somehow tied to this conjunction/depending on other aspects). Because this aspect causes one to be more serious-minded, it is important that they stay mentally busy and of productive use. Being overly negative in thought and thought patterns is definitely a possibility here if Saturn isn’t kept productive and the mind is allowed to stay idle too long. All of the above can give the mind more of a depressive bent. But unlike the opposition and the square, all of this will feel natural to the native; there is no tug-of-war or tension feeling with the conjunction aspect.

Mercury/Saturn Opposition: This opposition shows up in people that are incredibly smart, but there may be issues in how you communicate and think about everything that you know and want to share. The ability that you have to censor yourself may not feel as natural here in the sense that there may be a tug-of-war quality about it; there may be times that you know it would be in your best interest to NOT censor yourself, and can see what you need to do to not do this, but there can be issues in actually acheiving this and not doing it. Because of this, I feel that this is the one of these three aspects where anxiety can creep in. There can also be a real tug of war in terms of the way that you process information and learn new things. Mercury wants to learn things quickly and wants to share this newly learned information just as fast, but Saturn here in opposition says “hold up, let me really take in this new information I’ve learned.” While extremely smart, you may not process things quite as quickly or in as fluid a way as other people at times, which can leave you feeling less than. The same thing can be said about the way that you communicate this information; it may be a little slower (and you may even speak slower, more deliberately, when you do speak), as a way of really getting your thoughts across in a clear manner. Too much self-censoring, and feeling less than, can leave you feeling depressed. This possible depressive inclination is exacerbated by the seriousness of the mind here, and it’s inclination to lean more towards the “negative.” Learning to consciously balance the mind here, (kind of consciously allowing Mercury & Saturn to come through at times), as well as giving yourself grace to operate differently from other people (we are all unique!) is key here.

Mercury/Saturn Square: Out of all these aspects, this one is probably the most difficult to have in your natal chart. There is no merging here, no give and take, just pure tension all the time, and one has to learn to live and operate in spite of this tension. Mercury is quick, wanting to take in everything that it can learn and always curious. Saturn never really wants to give in to Mercury here, and is constantly “restricting”. At the same time, Mercury never really wants to slow down enough to appease Saturn. Having this aspect can cause some real issues with a lack of self-confidence, shyness (and possibly even loneliness) due to this lack of self-confidence, negative/depressive thought patterns, and a variety of learning differences. Because of Mercury and Saturn not ever seeing eye to eye here with this aspect, the mind (while again, usually very intelligent), may need extra time to really catch up and process in some way. You may have a different way of needing to learn certain concepts (nothing wrong with that, we’re all different!), and one of the ways to take on the challenge of this aspect is to embrace this about yourself if it happens to be the case in your life. The censoring that you can do to yourself here in regards to how you actually communicate can be crippling. It is massively important for any depression that you may suffer from, or for any intense shyness and loneliness that results from this, that you actually do force yourself to communicate your thoughts to the world. I’m not saying you have to turn into Chatty Cathy with anyone and everyone, but communicating when you have knowledge that you want to share (of which you have oodles), or something that you really want to say…..try just saying it. You could start out doing this with people that love you and have your best interest at heart, and slowly widening your circle. By just dipping your feet into the shallow end of communication, you may find that some of the depression, self-criticism, and loneliness that you may suffer from are alleviated some.

To read more on the subject of mental illness & mental differences in the natal chart, here is the link to a blog post of mine about Mercury/Uranus Hard Aspects:
https://saturnseason.com/2019/02/15/mercury-uranus-aspects-of-the-harder-variety/

Mercury/Uranus aspects of the “harder” variety

A question that I get asked often has to do with mental illnesses/mental differences, and if I’m able to see things like that in the natal chart. The answer to this particular question is yes and no. The natal chart is like a blueprint of possibilities for the person (and the soul) in this lifetime. Just because something “difficult” shows up in one’s natal chart regarding mental illness (or anything, really) doesn’t necessarily mean that the person will ever manifest that particular difficult energy into reality. Though, if the propensity *is* there for mental illness to occur, whether or not it actually occurs depends on a number of factors (such as biology, environment, and nurturing), as well as heavier transits hitting the aspect in question, thus activating it. Since I am specifically talking about mental illnesses & mental differences, certain aspects made between Mercury and Uranus (specifically the square, opposition and conjunction) seem to cause people some issues in the areas of mental health. The specific types of mental health issues that these hard aspects between Mercury and Uranus tend to produce are anxiety (either full blown or just some general nervousness), ADHD, all the way over to schizophrenia (among other things). This is a trend that I have noticed time and time again, and I suppose the part of me that finds mental health and psychology fascinating wanted to discuss it 🙂
**Just for a bit of reference……Mercury is essentially the mind of the natal chart, where we think and learn in a concrete way, and where we communicate. It is traditionally quick and logical. Uranus goes far beyond the concrete mind and basic logic in a lightening fast, revolutionary, sometimes shocking and universal way. **
***Also, as a disclaimer, I am in no way, shape, or form saying that people automatically have mental issues and differences by default when they have these harder aspects in their natal charts. I’m only saying that the possibility could exist of something like generalized anxiety disorder occurring in their life if one of these aspects is in the natal chart of the person. Just want to make that part really, really clear.***

Mercury/Uranus Conjunction: Conjunctions naturally fuse together the energy of two planets, and they don’t usually operate independently of one another, if they are able to operate independently at all. You would be able to tell this from the orb of the conjunction; the tighter it is, the more fused together they are and the less of a possibility of them operating independently. Here you have two planets that actually very much like one another and get along, but they are both vying for the attention of the native, trying to make their independent presence known and express themselves. If any planet wins out in their bid for attention, it is usually Uranus; Uranus likes to shock and stun. There is usually a lot of nervous and anxious energy with this conjunction due to both planets being so quickly mentally inclined. Mercury, while fast, is pushed way beyond it’s regular quickness capacity with Uranus here. There may even end up being some jumbling and scattering of thought processes at times, and communication could be a little screwy, due to how quickly both think about things, and how quickly they desire to say what they think. The conjunction between these two is easiest of the “harder” aspects to work with. Depending on other factors (such as “positive or negative” aspects to this conjunction) in one’s natal chart, this conjunction could produce someone with a really genius and visionary mind, or someone who is quite genuis and visionary but can’t slow their mind down enough to make sense of their thoughts and communicate them effectively.

Mercury/Uranus Opposition: With any opposition aspect, there is a natural “push/pull” or tug-of-war that occurs between the planets. One planet wants to do things it’s way by sign and house, and the other planet wants to do things it’s way by the opposite sign and house. There can be a real frustration here; Since these planets do naturally like each other there can be some irritation between the two with each one trying to get the other to come over to “their” side of things (and not understanding why the other planet won’t play along with them). Both are very quick, so the tug-of-war nature of this aspect can cause the person to feel incredibly mentally scattered, and quite frankly, at times mentally worn out. This can be quite anxiety producing for the native since both planets are so quick. There is a lot of great potential here for the genuis inside the person to emerge if they can learn to balance the energy between Uranus and Mercury in their natal chart. Knowing when to utilize the visionary, off-beat, and mentally light years ahead qualities of Uranus, and when to utilize the concrete mind and effective communication of Mercury. The balance is actually possible here, though it will take a lot of effort (and will be made easier or harder by way of the house and sign that each of the planets fall in). It may even end up feeling like less of a balance between the planets, and more like them “calling a truce.” However you want to think of this, once you acheive this you get both planets to quit their constant back and forth, and shut the fuck up….some of the time, at least.

Mercury/Uranus Square: With any square aspect, there is usually nothing but tension. This tension can either serve as a driving force in our lives (as something to overcome), or it can serve as a crippling agent. Mercury square Uranus operates exactly this way. Here you have someone who is unusually smart (possibly even brilliant or genius), but the square causes issues with how the person is able to easily manifest these qualities in reality. On one side of the square you have Uranus in all of it’s revolutionary glory, with all of it’s visionary ideas. On the other side you have Mercury trying to communicate and think as clearly and effectively as it can. Oh, and let’s not forget that both planets are trying to do their thing at a rapid pace. With the tension here, it can cause someone to not be able to clearly process their own thoughts and communicate all of their many ideas effectively. This can lead to massive amounts of disorganized, bizarre, and/or scattered thinking, massive amounts of anxiety (in the extreme this anxiety could fall over into the realm of paranoia), and to someone who is just labeled as quite eccentric. How lightly or severely these qualities appear in the life of the native will depend on the rest of their chart. The goal with this particular square aspect is learning how to operate inspite of these differences. The person with this aspect will probably have their own unique way of doing so (and figuring out what works and how easily it works will have a lot to do with easier or harder aspects in the chart made to these particular planets, and the houses and signs they fall under). Once the native release some of this tension by operating inspite of it in a functional way, they are able to really let all their real brilliance shine through.